Friday, July 19, 2013
Whadafuck Happened Yesterday???
I know that I promised you all another recipe post today, but to be honest I'm just not in the right frame of mind.
Yesterday was probably one of the weirdest days of my life.
It started off with one of the worst family fights that I have ever experienced. I tried to help and say my piece, to stop it from being on such public display and got completely and utterly annihilated in the process.
The day then proceeded to get even more arbitrary when I discovered that my ex and once very close friend is about to have a baby. Well, his girlfriend is. He is not technically pregnant.
It doesn't hurt knowing he's about to have a baby. I mean, I saw this picture of her with a great big bump already on facebook and yes it was a shock to the system. This guy used to be featured in my blog a lot back in the days of 2010. He's the guy that severely broke my heart but yet we remained close.
Today I am very much over him and had absolutely no thoughts of us ever getting back together but it is still a surreal feeling to know that someone you were so connected and close with is now seriously having a baby.... It's like a final chapter closed there.
It doesn't hurt.
I'm not sad.
It's a feeling I really can't describe.
On the frikken same day.... someone I considered to be one of my closest male friends in town sent me a text message telling me he had to cut our friendship out of his life. WHADAFUCK????? It came completely out of no where. We were nattering away as always just the previous day about his sore neck among other things. I asked him why and he said I wouldn't understand it, but that he feels it is no longer appropriate. Appropriate?????? Granted he is older than I am by a few years but we have always had great, intelligent, indepth conversations about life. He is also a writer and a great one at that. I loved having such a creative, intune person in my life.
You should always be around the people thatt bring the best out in you and for me, he was one of those people.
He said something about not having a choice and that he had to now make some really hectic decisions in his life and asked me to not take it personally. Then he thanked me for my friendship and that was that.
WHAT THE BLOODY HELL HAPPENED YESTERDAY????
So, naturally... after work, I needed a drink. I also needed to get out of town for a bit. So I drove off to Wilderness where I met up with a new friend that I met at a grungy sports bar in town and raided his laptop for series while we shared some pretty awesome banter over beer.
The bar / restaurant we went to was called Cocomo's and it is seriously awesome. There was even a great live band and a firepit.
Once we'd established we got along and could hold a conversation, becoming buddies (yay!) we went off to Wilderness backpackers where we played pool (I am not pool champion. I'll stick to beer pong. Thanks.).
Making new friends and being in a new environment when you're down fixes everything. Refreshing, revitalizing and nourishing for the soul.
Oh yes by the way I am blonde again.
Moving on... there's a song I've been listening to repeatedly for the past few days. I just love it so much so I've added it below for your ear-pleasure.
It's called Mountains by Biffy Clyro.
I feel like this song was meant for me.
"I am the mountains! I am the sea!" BEEEEEEAUTIFUL lyrics. Love it.
I have realized that I respect myself too much to let negativity impact my life.
I do not need drama.
I do not need heartbreak.
I do not need people who do not respect or appreciate me.
I am good enough. YOU are good enough. Surround yourself with people who know that you are enough and that is the path to happiness.... but always remember: